Jazmine's Blog

I am lost there is no secret to that I won't lie and say I know exactly what I want in life I won't lie and say I am positive all the time my mind was consumed by darkness the darkness took all the happiness it took all of my love self-security and my faith it took the will to live it took my ambitions and it took my wants to become anything and that is something I have to fight for back I have to become unlost to be refound in a new light my heart will beat red and my soul will become blue from being beaten by the darkness I will fight back and become reborn as a new me the darkness can take what it wants but it won't take the new me and until then I am lost my soul will wonder on to a new life and a positive light and when it looks back it will know what it was like to feel lost and then find the light

your arm will reach out as your eyes will close do you notice anything feelings? or just empty air what do you feel? you move your hand around expecting someone else's hand to guide you to guide you blindly so when you walk you don't have to see the true struggle of life, you can not do that anymore you start to notice that no one can help you that you must push your self and open your eyes and just realize at the end of the day it is you that must get things are done in order to live your life you can not rely on everyone to do things for you you must work hard on your own and there is nothing wrong with that being independent is such a strong and beautiful thing you will understand that.                                                                     Helping-

I sit here and wonder about my life and where it will go there are moments in my life where the same things happen every day.. and it gets boring and tiering  I really do want something different  I know these new things will come in life where I work hard  and become the person I want to be  My life has changed  and in ways, I can't really control and I want more control I need to take charge but I am also so scared of messing up I know fear is what stops people from trying and I need to see that life will not stop for me  and will only keep going until I pass away and in this short time, I need to find myself and push  to become greater and smarter whatever it is that you want in life push for it we have such little time  our birthdays come every year we do not get younger we get older it is scary it's only scary if you did not live the life you wanted to you should always push for your drea...

Today I did have anxiety It did not feel good at all I am learning how to control my life a little better I may have things on my mind that bother me, but I have come up with things to help me feel better. I write I sing I type I read I listen to new music I also write down things on paper in order of my goals that  I want to complete There is nothing wrong with being stuck, It's just life. We all have to see it through and work really hard for the things we want Is it easy, hell no But it can be done It is normal to be afraid, but fear is what stops us We should take control of our lives and our happiness that we deserve I freak out all the time, but my life is not as bad as I make it seem mentally If you ever feel like your heads going to explode Take a paper and write down everything you are thankful for and blessed to have in your life Be mindful of the people who love you and just calm down and figure out how you can change for better and in a positive way ...

Love can be lost, and most times found by accident I know, because I always find love where I don't want to It does hurt when you find out love was an enemy In the beginning, we try to break and mend hearts that were broken We felt it was necessary to fall in love quickly I expected more, but I shouldn't have Why was I so surprised to find out you don't feel the same It hurt and I knew something like this would happen You made me feel loved so many times, but probably made me cry more than those happy times I was searching for something so sweet but instead, I found something bitter.....