Sweet Dark Memory (Poetry)

I will be honest today,

I broke the silence with tears this morning

I sipped my green tea, as I thought my life would fall before me

having no escape, the only escape was death, and that to me was the easy way out

I won't take it but I'll wait for it.

Because I know what it's like to feel pain that never goes away

It haunts me, it's always been there, and it will always stay there 

Most days I wish pain was not a good friend

a familiar face I can't escape, I want to leave the town where I grew up to run away from my own pain but I can't. Instead, I am forced to live here and dwell the everlasting darkness that has pity for me.